We started on a section of the world far and beyond today. But as soon as we found the information required we were startled. There is a difference in the possibilites available at such positions. What does one choose when all is riding on such thoughts? People expect too much from individuals in this fast past world going in endless motions. What exactly do we accomplish everyday by paying our taxes and our bosses ego. Is this what our fathers wanted for us.  Are you content living in your endless circle.

At this rate I will be 50 in a week. I have been looking around lately for an improvement. Its not that I don’t currently like my placement, but in life we must move forward. Things will be coming full circle by the end of the week and its going to be great. To tackle these thoughts and days again will be exciting. Do show the spoils I was once told and so I shall. I will let you know next week the outcome of this adventure. As for work i currently have been working on a showcase project. The vaporware RIDE is just that. I plan to show it off in the future. Until next time.

de·ment ( P )
To make (a person) insane.
To cause (a person) to lose intellectual capacity.

I am here dear. are you listening, i cry daily in these padded walls for your answer for your voice. Rabble paid daily in my head in my eyes in my gymnasium. Pain, truth and life are just trivial at this point. You are dead and so am i. I suffer hell in death while you are hell in life.

Finally after a 3 months of hard work im loading this baby live. There are currently many bugs im working through so if you happen to see any on the actual website pages please let me know via email. Also the web blog theme is underconstruction and will be up asap. Thanks and enjoy

Well i just spent a weekend in vegas when i get a call monday morning at around 2 am… Its my roomate rob and his girlfriend. Turns out while im on my one vaca theres a huge fire going on in sd…. Well im sure everyones been following the news…. but here is a video of a neighbor here in my development… you can actually see robs grandam in the beginning in my parking spot.

Anyways flying into san diego on monday afternoon was a freaky and eye opening experience. I saw the fires from north county all the way down to sd.. Our pilot was battling the winds all the way in.. We were getting tossed around like nothign and he had to pull up last minute and try to land again… This time we went around and tried a gradual descent and this time he got us on the ground.. Kinda scary.. So todays weds and im finally home… I have been hiding out at the lady friends palace…. The air here is horrid and my chest kinda hurts… Until next time

The following journal entries were found in a little book buried deep in an old cottage. This book was found to be the journal of Mrs. Hatch of Connecticut. The early entries tell of her life from 1910 on to 1950’s. But during her later years the entries become odd. She’s experiencingold age in an old house with only her pet dog. Her experiences are either true or they are distorted by old age and despair.
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I’ve recently started experimenting with this new flash 3d engine called papervision3d. It allows for some crazy effects and i hope to incorporate this into my flash header for christophermdickens.com. The following are some links to look into Papervision3d.

Papervision3d downloads
Papervision3d Wiki
Papervision3d blog
Another Papervision3d blog
Papervision3d in 5 mins

So last night i saw my mother and father for the first time in almost a year… See before i moved to California i lived in the lovely Connecticut. Yes just as expensive just not as nice… But anyways yay, saw the rents for the first time and it was odd.. My mom was especially emotional reminding me of my grandmother ( her mother ). I will be taking them to a nice restaurant this evening and having them meet the new lady friend.. But for now i gotta go get my things together and hit up the beach.

A mind that is in fast turbulent motion is sick. It is alienated from the collective. It is selfish, hateful and rude. Negative thoughts, like anger, fear and hate, tend to flow fast and turbulent. The slow mind is sound. It is in tune with the collective. It is harmonious, loving and kind. Positive thoughts, like love, patience and compassion, tend to flow slow and clear. The still mind is at one with the collective. It is selfless, creative and divine. It is a mystic awareness, free of the flow of extraneous thoughts.

-=PSY·CHO·PATH·IC=-

Green eyed and passed over, the lights go out on todays frontrunner. Why? you may ask? Because things happen for a reason. The right is clear with 20/20 vision while the left has just enough blur to cause head distress. Fading out with this passion my eyes cry once more. Every moment passed causes my temple to grow wet… The thoughts of my path to the end seems so far and gone. Being 24 isnt a gift they say. Beginning of the end or just maybe the beginning of something.

psy·cho·path·ic ( P )
adj.
Of, relating to, or characterized by psychopathy.
Relating to or affected with an antisocial personality disorder.

-=MA·NI·A·CAL=-

Shy away phantoms. My frenzied neighbors, 1 2 16 76. I am not terrified of you all but i do find it amusing. Sometimes crowded but moreover tensioned. Some may wonder how this sorta thing happens. I simply explain how life interupted with tragedy causing extended pain results in social and memory loss. Creating quite possibly life altering behaviors.

ma·ni·a·cal ( P )
adj.
Suggestive of or afflicted with insanity: a maniacal frenzy.
Characterized by excessive enthusiasm or excitement: a maniacal interest in an act.

Welcome to my new blog here at christophermdickens.com. I currently work at Einstein Industries in San Diego California. My current position is Flash Designer. My job consists of me waiting in traffic usually due to me living in San Marcos California. Anyways my focus these last few years ahas been on webdesign, flash, css and all the latest in the “internet”. I will be posting on my life out here, my creative writing, and anything to do with design. I may choose to expand these topics in the future but for now learn to deal;)

For now my new personal site/portfolio/resume/blog site isnt complete. It should be released sometime in november. For now i will try and post a few things a week.. Like I mentioned above, ill try to post a little of everything!